Okay, totally unrelated from the post I just barely published, but I remembered that this morning our little Adara was completely fixated on black holes. She might have gone to bed the night before talking about it, too. She kept talking about how she was afraid of falling into a black hole, and something about a black hole in the middle of the earth. "Are we going to earth?" she asked this morning. "I don't want to fall in the black hole. You're not going to fall in the black hole, are you mom?"
And, random association here -- just remembering wonderful things my child has said recently. A few weeks ago we were driving to church when Adara asked, "Mom, why do we go to church?" (This was the beginning of her "why" phase. I'm looking forward to the end of it.)
I tried to think of a good answer. "Because it's Sunday" was the winning idea.
As it turns out, Adara had a better answer, which she told me as we were walking towards the chapel, "I like church." Maybe when I no longer have to police my children during sacrament meeting, and when I can attend a meeting where I can focus on feeling the Spirit (let's just say I'm the primary chorister and I have a pre-nursery age child), then I, like Adara, will also be able to say, "I like going to church."
Not that I don't like primary. I do love to spend the majority of my Sunday worship time doing wiggle songs and music games. What could be more fun? (No, I'm not being facetious.) I just feel remarkably un-spiritual. And I know it's not because of the calling. It's just that I'm not used to bearing 100% of the burden of seeking and retaining the influence of the Spirit in my life. It'd be really nice to have an uninterrupted hour or two when someone else could lead me into that state of being. . . . Oh well, I guess it's time to grow up and learn some personal responsibility.